Asking and accepting forgiveness from Yahweh, God/Jesus (Yeshua) …. Whew! This can be the easiest and hardest thing, but at the same time, will be the most important thing you will ever do in your life! Jesus gave his life on the cross so you could live forever in heaven not hell; but also live free today from the burdens in your life, beyond circumstances, free in your heart and mind, a clean body and clear conscience….
I remember being so filled with rage, hatred for my birth family, rejection from so-called church family. I asked Jesus into my heart at age 7, was baptized, and life became really confusing with all the hypocrisy. I was beaten with a belt, yelled at and cussed, watched my parents fight constantly and was still expected to act like everything was perfect when showing up at church (every single service, I was never allowed to skip church). Yes, I suffered spiritual abuse and trauma at the hands of others from birth, so I do understand how difficult the concept of forgiveness is when you’ve been hurt, abused, traumatized and have to come to grips with knowing that same forgiveness is offered to your abusers…. Yeah, Yeshua (Jesus) died for all…. So it’s scary, accepting forgiveness for yourself also means understanding that free gift of forgiveness is for everyone, including ‘them’. 😒 Pray for forgiveness and for them anyways, resentment can destroy YOU! You’re not hurting them by hanging on to the hate, they don’t even care or think about it anymore!
Not knowing what to expect when releasing fear can then create more fear and keep you frozen from action. This is a tool of the enemy. Procrastination is one of the biggest maladaptive coping skills a traumatized person has. Most of our coping skills are maladaptive and sinful, it was our nature and we developed survival mechanisms. As children, the abused learn to manipulate and deceive from early on only as an attempt to forge a safer environment and get their needs met. Still yet, this creates a myriad of challenges as adults in our relationships and daily decision making. Asking for and acceptance of forgiveness begins the journey out of fear and into love. Jesus can change your mind, heal your heart, and change your life if you let him.
Hind sight being 20/20 they say… I can now see that for so long, it was my choice to hold on to the pain, fear, and suffering. At some point, I agreed with my abusers that I wasn’t worthy of love or God’s mercy and forgiveness and I began abusing my own spirit with sin. I found alcohol and drugs in my early teens, I was date raped so why stay chaste? I realize now that it was always my choice to take that pain with tears to Jesus or internalize it and numb that pain away with sinful, prideful, promiscuous behavior. I hated the person I had become; I was a fat, lazy, drug addict that wouldn’t take care of her kid. I was someone totally unrecognizable in my sins. Abusing my own spirit with the sins in my life was a choice, yuck! 🤮. So the road back had to begin with forgiveness for myself. There’s no pill you can take that can change your past but Jesus Christ can make living with yourself peaceful. Seriously, I was praying just for tolerable, but I have found peace with myself and my family through our Savior and Lord Jesus Christ, Yeshua. Truly the peace that surpasses all understanding!
🕊️ HaleuYAH 🙌🏼
The pivot point for me was realizing that I needed to start showing up for myself, that as a child of the King, I am worthy of making the hard choices for myself and my daughter. I do deserve the life YHWH (God) has for me. I don’t have to allow Satan to steal my joy, I am an adult and capable of making my own right choices despite what was done to me as a child and the consequences of my poor choices since then. Don’t settle for a deception, don’t deceive yourself. There is freedom in forgiveness and remember, it’s not for ‘them’, in fact ‘they’ may never know unless you tell them. Forgiveness is for YOU, for your peace of mind! Ask for it, receive it, ask to be shown a different, better way, be shown how to choose love over fear. Love yourself. Don’t choose spirit abuse by walking in sin. Instead, choose spirit nurturing by following in the footsteps of Yeshua (Jesus).
“Blessed are they whose sins are forgiven, and whose sins are covered.” -Romans 4:8 🕊️🙏🏼
“Don’t be like the world: be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God” -Romans12:2 🙌🏼
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